I can’t process this anger

In no order:

  • Moderate Republicans who said we were being alarmist.
  • Liberals/DSA who protest-voted against Hillary.
  • Conservative Democrats (Manchin and Sinema) whose selfish and likely corrupt inaction kneecapped the Senate.
  • All of the Republicans who are now Never-Trumpers who got us into this sexist, racist, classist hell but don’t admit their disastrous culpability.
  • Middle class white women who were too politically lazy to realize what they were voting for and what they were sentencing their daughters to.
  • Moderate (?) Republicans who trusted the word of a judge who sexually assaulted women (fuck “allegedly”)–including anyone who attacked Christine Blasey Ford–and another judge who is part of a far-right X-tian sect.
  • Many on the Supreme Court who were picked with the influence of a millenarianist group [ed. too angry to look for the references I’ve seen, come back later] Updated 5 Jul 2022, it’s Opus Dei:
via @jzikah, 1 Jul 2022, 10:49 AM
  • Teens. Teen women esp. Vote, you stupid motherfuckers. Me and my generation need to fade out and to do so you need to god. damn. take. charge.
  • Me, for being comfortable. This will never affect me in my lifetime so maybe I didn’t do enough?
  • All women (ok, so I mean many) who voted in a manner to let this happen because others said they were being alarmist or because they wanted a Republican over a Democrat no matter the cost or because of gender self-hatred (see also: “shrill Hillary”).

I am so very tired.

January 6th Committee Hearings–Mon 9 Jun 2022

Sat down 45 minutes beforehand. The standard Tweetdeck columns opened. First column, all of those political wonks I grouped together under the custom list titled “Impeachment” and created during the first impeachment hearings. How long ago was that? Then, two columns with search results for the hashtag #January6thCommitteeHearings, one filtered for tweets with a minimum of 20 likes (trending) and one filtered for tweets with a minimum of 100 likes (more sticky). Pre-hearing commentary on MSNBC; streaming hearing on C-SPAN. Let’s go.

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Suite for Orchestra, “Figures in a Landscape”–Beginning research

I finished the book by Barry England, Figures in a Landscape, maybe a year ago and it tore me apart.

It, and it’s ideas, came back to me recently for no particular reason, but the story immediately felt like a primal source of expression for something current in me. As inspiration, you look for the internal emotions–those that are the wordless–that you hope to express to others so that They Can See the Importance of those subjective ideations. More to the point: I look for those aspects of what’s in me to be important out of me… but I think it’s uncontroversial that this concept is universal w/r/t artists in general.

That’s a sloppy way of pointing out that: you say what you want to, and have to, say, and hope others enjoy it.

my copy, acquired Jun 2021
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