I’m worried I have strayed from the tonality of last year’s studies (which is what I’ve wanted to do) but have made it all process and not art (which is what I didn’t). The 2nd movement was very deep into process much like what I’d read of Ferneyhough’s technique in Lemma (or any serialists really) and I’ve continued a bit with that approach with the 4th. Is it too much? I am very happy with the mood so far though.
What am I feeling?
Continue reading Joe Biden and Kamala HarrisThe 2nd movement (I am now), interlude (“Everything was forever until it was no more”), and 3rd movement (an occupying army) are done.
I have this fear that when everything changes on Tuesday I’ll no longer be able to look at this work, the work that’s left, in the same light. No matter the outcome.
I finished the interlude and it feels very good that there’s a stopping point. I don’t know what our state of mind will be on Wednesday. Being in mid-music would be at the very least fragmenting.
I can’t say that the oncoming anguish helps or hurts or strips any possibility of creative expression because of a fight-or-flight panic.
Musical observations feel less-than-important right now. Here they are from the last few days:
Continue reading Symphony No. 1 – Before everything changesI had abandoned these updates almost exactly three months ago (24 Jul 2020) and it’s been nagging me. My process had been to slowly build a list of notes over days and weeks and to review liked tweets that were my bookmarks of useful information. I would then try to organize it. When I stopped posting, I had very little new that I was experiencing and so updates and observations began to stagnate. From the start, I wanted this to be a way to remember each moment of a world that could radically change within weeks or days. Even though my July experiences were anemic, much still happened in the three months since then, and those months will be a dark age when I look back a year/years from now.
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